30/4/10

all right...
going to camp later...
hope i'll enjoy the camp...
n forget all those sad things...
=]


pohteng send this for me...
agree wat inside...
thx pohteng!~

一个苦者找到一个和尚倾诉他的心事。
没什么事是放不下的，痛了，你自然就会放下
他说：“我放不下一些事，放不下一些人。”
　　和尚说：“没有什么东西是放不下的。”
　　他说： “这些事和人我就偏偏放不下。”
　　和尚让他拿着一个茶杯，然后就往里面倒热水，一直倒到水溢出来。
　　苦者被烫到马上松开了手。
　　和尚说：“这个世界上没有什么事是放不下的，痛了，你自然就会放下。”


　　傻孩子．
　　忘了吧．所有你留恋的．你回忆的．你拥有过的．
　　那些．都已是记忆．
　　缺失并不可怕．
　　可怕的．是无法面对．
　　傻孩子．
　　你无法轻易忘记放弃．是因为你付出过．
　　付出了．她就会像柱子一样扎根在心．
　　不要刻意去逃避．刻意忘记．那只会让你更痛苦．
　　绕开这个柱子．寻找未来的幸福生活吧．
　　那里．有你的理想．

　　傻孩子．
　　开始新的习惯吧．
　　习惯．每天一个人生活．
　　习惯．一个人过生日．一个人行走．
　　习惯．走过熟悉的路．面对熟悉的景．
　　你逃不掉．逃不掉的．
　　那么．就勇敢面对．现实．
　　现实是．一切．画上了句点．

　　傻孩子．
　　勇敢看着镜子中的自己吧．
　　这个悲伤软弱满面憔悴的自己．
　　这也是你．成长中的你．
　　这个你．正在逐渐死去．
　　新的你．即将重生．
　　找寻你的路．你的未来．
　　你知道的．所有的浩劫．都是成长的祭奠．
　　做最好的自己．即使．一个人．

　　傻孩子．
　　好．好．尽情发泄吧．
　　剥开自己的心．用文字．用声音．用所有能发泄的方式．
　　泄完了．就要振作．
　　看吧．你失去的．其实微不足道．
　　还有那么多人关心着你．以不同的方式．
　　所以．你并不孤独．
　　正是这样的失去．让你看清现在所拥有的幸福．

　　傻孩子．
　　别哭．别再哭．
　　不值得．真的．不值得了．
　　把过去尘封吧．别委屈．别不甘心．别不接受．
　　开始新的旅程吧．去遇见新的风景．新的际遇．
　　做你该做的事吧．有很多事．等待着你完成呢．

　　傻孩子．
　　生活褪去了曾有的颜色．暂时宁静．
　　别沉沦在这片宁静里．那会毁掉你．
　　你要明白．虽然残忍．但这个决定．足够正确．
　　现在的生活．不是你想要的．
　　为了你的理想．你必须学会适时放弃．
　　给对方最好的关怀．就是．变的更好．更强大．更幸福．


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29/4/10-restart my life!!~

hmm...
i think im fine...
juz continue...=]
gambateh!!~

changed my blog's background...
thx to wee ern n sin wei...
thank you very much ya!!~
p/s: grace...dun say "hello kitty again??"~^^

today at skul...
last 2 periods...
bm...komsas...
teacher wan us work in pairs...
me n lihan 1 group lo...
walao...
all i doing onli...
then last period she went out earlier...
collect the buku kawalan...
whole thing i doing...
sumore not enough time...=[
walao...
kok li han...
u owe me 1!!

tomoro going to camp...
hmm...
actually i have no mood going...
but...
maybe this is the chance for me to forget all the things???
trying hard to relax myself...


realy hope that...
there is memory card inside my mind...
so i can take out those sad memories...
but no...
haiz...
i wanna restart my life...
alone...
without u...
hope i can do it...
=D

29/4/10

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26/4/10

24/4/10 (Saturday) :

hmm...went to skul...
quite sien de...
last few periods left 6 ppl in class onli...
coz all malays went for ceramah...

helped teacher to copy kelab bola tampar's name list...
walao...
form 2 til form 5...
my hand damn pain la...

my sis birthday...
happy belated birthday to u !!!~
ur jie jie forgot to post on that day le...
paiseh ya...

went to watch ' ais kacang puppy love'
hmm...quite nice la...
not bad...><

25/4/10 (Sunday) :
super boring...
whole day doning my hw...
n folio...
til 1 am sumthing onli done... =[...
realy sien...
exam cuming sumore...
i realy wan sot d...
cant think so many things 1 time...

26/4/10 (Monday) :
everyone ask me y so emo today??
realy??
i oso duno y...
maybe bcoz of tat...
but im trying harder n harder not to think of it anymore...
i wan chat wif my frens!!~
coz they will make me laugh!!~=]
thx to grace yian sinwei ern vivien karmen...
n kai ling!!!~
tq very much everyone...^^

p/s: 3rd time i put this song in my blog...love it very very much...nice!!~


*只在乎曾经拥有*

24/4/10

心情

犹如在天空中漂浮的伞

该何去何从？

不知道

。

。

我该怎么办？

你要我不要想

我做不到！！

第一次觉得

距离。好远

许多想说出口的话

都还没说

。。。

老实说

我不想结束

但这一切

我做不了决定

如你说的

顺其自然

我要快乐！！~ ^o^

让自己望得更遥远

忘掉一切烦恼

加油！~

23/4/10 --累了...

It's friday again! hmm...so fast!~Tomorrow is saturday, it's a school day too. Still thinking whether want to go or not. No people teman me leh...=[ Pengawas n Pengawas pss having ceramah*not sure is ceramah or what* Then the others *girls* all not coming. Stay at home?? I sure sleep until 12++ onli wake up. Go to school at least i'll do my homework. Go or dun go leh?? YES OR NO???

Finally i DONE my sejarah folio!!~*clap clap clap* =] But hope the teacher wun say SALAH!! or TUKAR!! pls...pls...pls...If realy like that then i have to copy again. Copy leh!!~waste time waste ink n waste A4 too. So hope the teacher will say SUDAH OK!! *praying hard*

Today stay back at school until 2pm onli back home. Decorate the school's activities notice board. Actually yesterday already done half, but i tot we will do it very very slow until 2 pm de. So tell sinwei n wee ern stay until 2pm. Who say...we done decorating at 1.07pm...Still got 1 more hour, what to do?? Sinwei back home 1st, left me n wee ern, nothing to do. Actually i can walk back home de, but cannot left wee ern alone, since i call her to stay til so late de, so i also stay until 2pm to teman her la. We went to canteen, ate our lunch n i start doing my homework while wee ern n li han eating ice cream. Thank you very much wee ern for the ice cream although it kena my book many times..hahaxD..but i dun mind la, coz my book is pink colour now..=D

I DON'T WANT to think of it anymore!! Im realy tired...Although this is not the ending i want, i still have to go on, continue it. This is what i've chosen. Or just give up??I don't know. Maybe it will be better, or wun? pain~><

What can i do now? Do my homework. my folio, whatever things can do n don't think of it anymore!! Thats the onli way i can forget this...


*when i see you...smiling, laughing...
im realy happy...
i wan you to be happy always...=] *

18/4/10

hmm...
so tired today...
morning went skul...
for hari anugerah cemerlang...
quite happy...
took many pics...
lazy upload here la...
wan c go my fb la...
received a sijil n rm30 popular cash voucher...

after tat went ioi wif family...
spent my whole afternoon there...
went popular but no idea how to use tat rm30 cash voucher...
zzZ...

tomoro going out wif my frens...
yes!!~
my dad say ok!
miracle!!~hahaxD
but i think will very sien de...
nvm...
at least got help sinwei celebrate her bday la...
her belated bday...
hope she will happy~^^

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我的大名：Tan Vi Vien 陈苇雯
我的生日：31.03.1995
谁传给你的：Yuan Jun
近期压力大的事：folio!! exam!!!
以后想从事什么职业：duno...
有没有喜欢的人：有...
同学会要回去找老师吗: duno...
跟谁出去最幸福：某人...hahaxD
如果你的两个好友吵架了：做中间人，把他俩重新变回朋友。
跟情人最想去哪：no idea...
其实最想跟谁过圣诞节：duno...
有几个兄弟姐妹：2个
最喜欢的一首歌：带我走
最后悔的事是什么：很多。。
最喜欢什么颜色：粉红！
上厕所会不会先冲水: 一定会！！
最想大声说什么：arghhhH!!!!~ i hate u folio!!!~
半夜敢不敢自己上厕所：不一定。。
谁很欠打：有些人。。
现在很迷什么：好像没有。。
睡相很差：不知道
现在的时间：11.46pm
是否痛恨传给你点卷的人：不会
今天天气：晴天
你若中乐透最想做什么：买买买！！~
大学生一定要玩的活动：还不知道
失眠引起的原因：压力大。。
你睡觉有流口水的情况吗：没有。。
近期开心的事：好像没有。。
喜欢的天气是什么：晴天
最喜欢的一项运动：不喜欢运动。。
有何近期目标：faster finish my folio!!~
放假有何打算：sleep!!!~
觉得自己哪里最不爽：没有
觉得爱情是生命的必须吗：是
满意现在的生活吗：还好。。
打算什么时候结婚：no idea
吃什么：食物。。xD
用五个词来形容一下点你的人：haha...good good good good good...can???
早餐喜欢吃什么：不要吃
你理想中的另一半：就这样咯。。
请你大声说出你喜欢的人的名字：zzZ...u all noe la...
你有在公共场所认错人的尴尬吗？：没有


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恭喜以下被我点到的人
1.wei qin
2gracey
3.sin wei
4.wee ern
5.ying ting
6.li han
7.blink blink-yuki
8.yi an

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16/4/10

friday...
em...
nothing special...
kh...3 periods teacher din cum...
but still give us many things to salin...=[

tomoro...
em 17/4...
3 of my frens' birthday...
1st...
my best servant aka regina!!!!
2nd...
mama aka sin wei!!!
3rd...
ee lain!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO 3 OF U...
SELAMAT HARI JADI!!!~
生日快乐！！

mamet ask me tomoro go sunway n celebrate regina's birthday...
but others ask me monday go ioi n celebrate sinwei birthday...
wat la weh...
i onli can choose 1...
which 1 shud i choose???
2 oso dunwan go!!!
the onli thing i can do...
so sorry~

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14/4/10

finally...
i got my new handphone...
argh...alr wait for 1 month le...

tomoro got raptai for hari anugerah cemerlang...
can ponteng class??
hahaxD...

no mood to do my folio...
so lazy...=[

skip tuition today...
no ppl fetch me la...
so sorry sin wei...
i noe ur paper still wif me...
sorry sorry sorry!!~

slp from 6.30pm until 10pm...
fuiyoh~1st time leh...
until now onli realise i haven eat my dinner...
luckily my mum duno...
if not sure scold de...

nice day~ =]


妳要我多笑
对不起!
我做不到~

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13/4/10

有人说

我变了

变得不再是以前的那个我了

。

。

。

或许吧

或许从一开始就变了

只是你没有发觉而已

。

。

。

但你有没有想过

这一切的一切

可能只是

伪装

？？

。

。

。

12/4/10

arghh!!~
i have so many hw again...
walao...
realy not enough time la!!

next mon holiday???
oh YES!!
1 day to rest...

i duno what to write for my karangan...
no idea...
my mind blank~
sien lo...
hate karangan!!~

totally forget later tuition teacher will test us for the form 1 science...
omg~
still got 1/2 hour for me...
so many chapter...
zzZ...

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11/4/10

busy! busy! busy!
even saturday n sunday oso canot rest...
haiz...haiz...
n now...
i tot i hav finish all my works...
suddenly come out other works for me to do...
ARGHHH!!!!!!~
i forgot to write in my note book le!!
my mind's memory realy not enough liao...
T^T

11/4/10

烦

烦

烦

！！！

8/4/10

i feel myself bcum more lazy liao...
lazy do this do that la...
wat oso wait until last minute...=[

cheer up!!~
.

.

.

juz now saw some pics in a website

pink colour's flute

omg~so cool!!~

so nice weh~

i want!!!~

...

..

.

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7/4/10

happy birthday to zha bo aka jim...
or jimlene??(i duno y they all call u this name...)

today when my sis n me reach home...
my mum said : i din cook lunch for u 2 leh...
harrrrr!!!~
then wat to eat???
then i say go giant eat la...
since grace they all oso there...
k la...
celebrated jim's birthday there...
but not enough time to eat the birthday cake...
sumore very full le...
cant eat the cake la...

late for orchestra practice...
er...
10 minutes??
i think more than 10 minutes...=[
practised many new songs..
now my mind full of the 'i only care abt u'...
haha...xD
after that grace ask me n ern go eat cake at canteen at 4.45pm...
so we leave orchestra practice earlier...
but im still very full la...
realy cant eat the cake...
decided to give it to sumone...
but i cant find that person...
suan la...=[

tuition time again...
sienz...D:


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6/4/10

suddenly realised that it's so late now...
9.05pm...
for me it's late coz i not yet start doing my hw...
my folio...
arghh....many things la...
still got the 《青苹果》...
cant find good essay leh...=[

abt the folio...
spent so much time on it at last have to do it again...
i hate listening to teacher when she saying...
tak boleh! tak boleh! tak boleh!
have to do it again now...
wasting my time!!~
wasting paper!!~.
wasting ink!!~
i hate folio very very muchhhh!!!~

oh ya...1 more job for me...
totally forget abt it...
the wind orchestra information board...
have to add new things...
c when free have to stay back n do le...
haiz...actually im very busy everyday...
coz??
tuition everyday...
hate this the most...
but wat can i do??
haiz...
like whole day studying nia...
at skul study...
go back home oso study...
no time to relax...=[

hate this kind of life...
no chance going out from house beside going to skul n tuition...
no chance going out n play bkb, badminton...
watever ball la...(tats y im not good in sport!)
everyday stay at home nia...=(
sienz la...
even my kokurikulum oso...
all indoor activities...
ping pong~*actually i din played ping pong b4...enter ping pong all bcoz of grace cheng...*
skip this...
all right then...
wind orchestra...
this 1 realy in indoor all the time...

but y my skin colour still so dark leh??
haha...xD
coz everyday walk back home??
...
..
.
no idea...


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6/4/10

arghhh!~
i feel so stress...
so many things waiting for me...
not enough time arh!!!~
tired...=[

4/4/10

1.19 am...
good morning everyone...^^
it's time to SLEEP!!~
not wake up oh...
but i dunwan slp yet...
although very tired liao...
of coz got reason la...
got chance for me to use comp still dunwan use??
of coz i wan use!!
late abit slp oso nvm la...
haha...xD

today went orchestra practice...
em...sorry...
is ytd...
feel so disappointed to the flute's new member...
teach her so long time le still no improvement at all...
1 month or 2 month le??
ask her go back got practise or not?
NO...
go back home got run or do sit up?
NO...
walao eh...
until section leader=jia ying realy angry le wan denda her go run 2 rounds...
but at last all flutist teman her run...
zzZ...tired...

after tat went giant...
cut my front hair...
actually forced by mum de...=[
i dunwan cut lo...
but nvm la...
not much different...
phew~

anyone done their folio???
borrow me!!~
realy duno wat to do leh...=[

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2/4/10

it's April now...
walao...realy fast leh...

well...
abt my bday...
em...
go back home din celebrated wif my family...
abit sad la...
coz dad busy la...
+ sis got tuition...
haiz...
nvm la...

so many hw n folio waiting for me now...T^T
argh!!~
sej folio...
geo folio...
sivik folio...
later still got seni folio...
walao eh...
dun treat me like tis leh...
everyday 12 ++ onli can sleep...
so cham lo...
T^T

today at skul...
walao...
the vivien ng's fans keep cum n kacau de...
noisy la weh...
sit on my place sumore...
zzZ...
vivien r vivien...
next time call them go out from the class la...
they wan find vivien ng not tan la...
shud sit on ur place de ma...

talk abt vivien ng...
oh ya...
i found tat we're realy same...
how we hold pencil...
wat we love...
wat we hate...
realy same...
n...
she hates durian too...
wow~
wat can i say???
we realy got 缘 la...xD

juz finish helping sin wei n yi an done their seni hw!!~
walao...
i realy scare later teacher noe i colour de leh...
coz quite same de...
good luck to u 2 la...
if teacher ask dun say my name can le...
haha...xp

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